resisting temptation.

i REALLY wanted to go shopping today.  instead i will relax, watch the jets game and clean my apt.  will go to cvs in a little bit to get a few things and then do laundry.  seems so simple, but it's SO HARD to not go shopping! especially when it's a 5 minute walk away.

o.m.g.

major major bender lately.  probably why i haven't been on here lately.  i did read recently about a woman who was deep in debt, had a good job and was in a very similar situation to me.  she kinda inspired me.  so, i'm going to keep at it!  there seriously is nothing out there i need to buy.  at. all.  why can't i stop???  i need a boyfriend or something to keep me occupied so i stop buying crap.  if only i were kidding.  sigh.  i want to stop so badly, but it's so hard! i live in the shopping capitol of the world.  from now on, i vow to put my energy towards going to the gym and keeping my flabby butt out of the stores.  there, i said it.

wow.

i just realized i walked all the way home from work and didn't stop in a single store.  and i got my frozen yogurt for free b/c the guy couldn't figure out the register-double win!  tomorrow won't be doing any shopping b/c i'm meeting friends after work.  bringing wine, and i already have a few bottles laying around which i've yet to open.  i did, however, receive bloomingdale's friends and family in the mail.  eek!  going to try not to use it.  is there ANYTHING i actually need?! probably not.  maybe new jeans if i don't go to the gym soon. haha!

holla!

alright, i did good and bad.  good? i forgot to go to macys so my coupon expired.  good! bad? i used a credit card or two this week.  but at least i didn't go to macys. that would've meant $200 boots and $100 dresses.  baby steps, baby steps, baby steps...

i need to update more.

it's yom kippur.  the holiest day of the year for jewish people. i'll be spending this time thinking and reflecting. and not shopping! i got a sweater at banana last night (40% off) but i'm going to return it.  don't need it or really love that much. got my hair all chopped off and feel like a new woman.  i hope this cheers me up.  i've been doing much better at work lately. scored some huge interviews; writing is improving. i feel a little pep in my step. now i just need a man. ha! less stressed means i don't want to shop as much...yay me!

time for me to get happy again. maybe cutting my hair will do it? seems so small, but so big at the same time? also, re-evaluating my life in nyc has really put things in perspective for me. am i ready to leave? probably not. time for me to turn things around and get my priorities straight. one day at a time.

how'd i do this weekend?

alright.  not great. had to buy dark colored pants for work on saturday and charged them.  but, at least i'll wear them again, right? and i'm not charging things so mindlessly again.

so incredibly stressed lately. going to try and regroup and figure out my life this week.  and try not to shop. that possible? we shall see.

glass case of emotion..

good news. didn't spend a penny today.  bad news?  i'm having a mini-meltdown at the thought of leaving my family and moving to washington, dc.  but, i'm making LOTS of connections and hoping i can figure out a new adventure in NYC.

anywho-tomorrow is "fashion night out" in nyc and i'm NOT going to bloomingdales-yay!  i have to work super early on saturday so i am going to try and skip shopping altogether.  will see how that goes....eeks!